I know where I am, but where am I going? This is the first time in a long time that the year has started with so many uncertainties. I’m not sure of my work because I’ve taken such a long break from it to recover from cancer. And I find myself gravitating toward the most random things like wanting to be involved with the Leukemia Lymphoma Society or wanting to have a successful blog. But shouldn’t I focus instead on the much more concrete tasks at hand like writing the article I need to write, applying for the grant I have to submit, and finishing my dissertation? The concrete tasks feel further away than they ever have and I wonder how and when I will get back to them. For the first time I feel myself wondering if I will get back to them.