Archives for the month of: June, 2014

Bay Area beauties.

This past week I returned to the bay area for a seminar, but also had the intense delight of returning home to Oakland for some much needed friend time. As I drove down familiar streets I had the distinct feeling that reminds you of home. I had just turned 22 when I moved to Berkeley and I feel like I grew up in the bay area. Joey and I fell in love there and it was in the bay area where I made some of the most precious friendships ripe with personal and intellectual closeness – friends who I miss daily. While we no longer live in Oakland, and I have felt more at home in NY than anywhere else, we made an incredible life in Oakland and the place still tells the tale.

Different classes for different phases at the most welcoming dance studio ever.

An era if there ever was one, the golden age perhaps.

The best Mexican we’ve ever had, ever, and a place for making new family.

A million ice creams at Fenton’s Creamery to mark a million occasions.

Quick weeknight dinners with the most dear friends in all the land.

We had a first date, a proposal dinner, and a bar exam celebration at Filippos.

Sam’s Chowder House is delicious, and it’s in Half Moon Bay where we’ve had the best beach walks.

A special place for walking and talking.


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Adapted from Cookie and Kate’s recipe, which she adapted from the fabulous Smitten Kitchen’s recipe. I took Kate’s muffins, swapped the sugar for some honey (a generous dollop, maybe 1/8 cup), cut the salt to two grinds on my grinder, and swapped the butter for Earth’s Balance vegan butter. Voila. Whole wheat, honey, yogurt, lemon, blueberry muffins. They fill the apartment with the best smell and are perfectly moist and not too crumbly. Mmmmm…

On quiet time.

I’ve been trying to enjoy quiet time lately. Sometimes quiet time doesn’t last long. Sometimes quiet time is just a moment during loud, overwhelming, or busy time. Whatever it is, and however it takes shape, I’m trying to recognize its comforting presence in both expected and unexpected places. Sometimes I close my eyes. Sometimes I’m watching more closely. Either way, the quiet times feel like the best times these days.

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I’ve always been a relatively good traveler, but, to be honest, I’ve noticed lately that trips make me more nervous than they used to. Like other things, I tend to blame this on navigating an unpredictable immune system and medication side effects.  When I got sick, keeping a strict schedule in a fairly controlled environment really helped me to keep hold on my health situation and to feel as comfortable as possible. While this makes it more difficult for me to finish a paper at the eleventh hour, throw some clothes in a bag last minute, fight blindly through sleep deprivation during big events, and stagger home bleary eyed but generally energized from a fun adventure, I do think it’s prompted me to take a look at my travel rituals and be more mindful about self-care on the road. Can’t be a bad thing, can it? As I prepare for a trip to attend a week-long symposium in California next week, I’ve been considering my travel rituals and ways to make myself feel more comfortable not only on the plane, but also while I am away from home.

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It’s been almost six months since I wrote. Many things have calmed down since then. We moved into our beautiful and cozy apartment in Long Island City – a neighborhood that we love. Joey studied for and passed the NY bar exam. I got a new doctor at Memorial Sloan Kettering and I feel very cared for and safe there. I have gotten back to work. I choreographed a new piece that premiered in April, I published my first scholarly article in the Media-N journal, I had a couple of other small pieces come out, and I revised a chapter for a mellon seminar on dance studies. Slowly, things are picking up pace. We feel like we’ve arrived. Finally.

Yet, of course there are still unknowns. I still have moments of fear over my health that I try to manage with deep breathing. I am still not working as much as I’d like and it’s unclear how that working will manifest itself in a career. I try my best to be in the moment, but sometimes I find that incredibly difficult.

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